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Jul. 2nd, 2009 | 06:52 pm

God Im exhausted. And its not the physically exhausted. THat I get on a daily basis and know how to deal with it. Im an insomniac after all. But Im exhausted of trying.. and failing.. to live upto everyones expectations. Most the time I dont even know what I have done and why people have stopped talking to me. Lost my whole family (non related) and Im not even sure what happened. NO one will tell me. Told me to stay away... so I did.. and now are upset that Im not going to them and talking to them about what the problem is. For the love of god make up your minds!!! I cant do both. Then there is the other issue. Im a gossip. I know it. So no one tell me anything anymore. That will solve that problem completly. This I take as my fault. This I have done wrong. This is on noones shoulders but my own. I apologise. Then the not knowing. The unsurity of maybe i did something wrong? Not in the group that told me to stay away but just stopped talking to me all together. No phone calls. No IM's nothing. This is exhausting. I want to crawl into a bubble and just stay there. I cant hurt anyone and no one can hurt me. Sounds like a plan.. where do I sign up for my bubble?

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Swapna

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from: ichthyus
date: Jul. 4th, 2009 04:39 pm (UTC)
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I'm sorry, sweetie - I'm here if you need to talk. Do you have my number?

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roseteddiebear

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from: roseteddiebear
date: Jul. 4th, 2009 08:04 pm (UTC)
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Im sure I have it somewhere but its lost in the miriad of boxes, but thanks. I was just venting. I had had a bad day. How are things with you?

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